dating older

“What are you after?” I asked suddenly, sitting upright. “I’m not having sex with you tonight and I can’t be intimate with anyone without getting super attached…” I asked if he was looking for an actual relationship and he said he wasn’t sure. His lips were on me and his hands were everywhere and he said wasn’t sure.

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i don’t want you to…

I was too a. confused and b. caught off guard and c. SCARED to say anything at first but finally mustered: “I don’t want you to…” BECAUSE I DIDN’T!! Hence the bar thingy!

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lips hands lungs

It sounded like a good idea so I leaned forward and kissed him and when he pulled away, it felt like he hadn’t kissed me back at all. I felt pretty sure of that.

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why are you sad, Jace?

It was probably 2 AM and we were still on the couch when I looked over at him and said: “I do like you, you know.” I told him that I didn’t want us to call this anything because I didn’t want to ruin it and he said that he wasn’t going to call it anything because I seemed like the type that didn’t want to be claimed. He was right in a way and wrong in another.

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going west, going home

I asked which state he liked most, traveling out that way, but he just reiterated that he went west. I didn’t press him but told him that I also want to go west.

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I know how I’m doing

I listened to other writers talk about students, Italy, tomatoes, politics. Everyone there was definitely out of my league so I tried to lean back some more, listening and watching as orange went purple then blue then black and then I mentioned, a bit tipsy now, that I liked rocks. 

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too fast

But then finally, he gets it right; he finds another missing piece, one that suits him well, and he knows exactly how to hold it so that it stays. 

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