and i’m out of my comfort zone
and they say that you’ll find him out here
but i’m looking up, and nothings clear
so i’m waiting for a reason
and i’m finding, fear
never really believed that you’d actually appear.**
and i’m fighting with the wind now
and i’m breathing really hard now
and i want to pull the sun down
and i want to make her see that now
and blood is seeping in the ground.
yeah, i’m melting.
and i feel my heart, beat, pound.
and i’m drowning.
yeah, i let the fire go
and you’re lying
and you know i hate it so
and didn’t i tell you so.
and i loved you once
and proceeded to love you again
you broke my heart the first time
and i hoped that it would mend
so iiiii put the pieces together
and gave YOU one more chance
you broke me like a feather, (alittle faster,)
i shattered like a glass
and i *hate you now
and i wish i didnt feel this way
because it hurts ME, not you, somehow
and my bed feels like an early grave
[cause i regret/
everything at night
because i’m upset/
with myself allll the time.]
and i miss
all those pretty lies.
and i cant understand –
where are you now?
am i allowed to sit this one out?
it’s so very hard to think, just plain DIFFICULT to comprehend.
and i dont like to stare into space, and to cry is to let the whole world in
on the fact, that i’m going crazy
and day by day, growing more lazy
is this the key i was meant to find?
so where’s the doorway that will take me
outside, (of myself..)
outside, (oh, i NEED your help)
cause inside, i’m constantly losing ground
slipping, sliding, ALLLL around.
and i hate standing on the outside.
i look in and see you. smiling.
and they’re holding your hand.
and you spend so much time
with people who think that i’m not good enough
and the people that say you just need to
move on, and
give up. on me.
and they are people that really dont care.
and i’m the person,
just standing out there..
hoping youll notice the pitter patter of the rain
wishing that maybe you’d sense how cold it is today
dreaming that you’ll see my tears that blend so easily with the rain
and perceive that i’m so dreadfully afraid.
dreaming that you’ll come to me, kiss all those tears away
dreaming that you’ll RUN to me, and love me with .. “embrace.”
take me in your arms,
and softly, sweetly
i am yours forever,
and these silly fears you foster
are wiped away, with all these tears
because you will always, be mine –
please,- be mine!!..
Did I add ‘forever,’ or did you say it?
Did this happen at all, or
have I only dream it?
oh, and my tears, they fall for you..
and oh, my fragile heart- how she longs for you.
-Aun Aqui, composed — roughly, 20 minutes ago.